What Launching a Meditation Class Taught Me About My Own BS

Sometimes launching something new feels exactly like this desk looks - a little chaotic, definitely not Instagram-perfect, but real life gets messy when you're doing meaningful work.

Here's the thing about launching a meditation class when you teach people how to find calm and presence: you will absolutely lose your shit in the process. And somehow, that's exactly as it should be.

This week, I'm launching my first online group meditation class, and let me tell you what went through my head when I was about to hit "publish" on the announcement: Am I good enough? I know nothing about marketing myself, help! Can I even do this? What am I doing?

But also: I want to do this so badly. I love doing this. I know I have something to give to others and this feels like a good way to do it.

Welcome to the beautiful contradiction of putting yourself out there.

Turns Out I'm Not Immune to Impostor Syndrome

You'd think that having a social work background, meditation training, and years of helping people manage stress would make me immune to the voice that screams "YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH" when I'm about to do something vulnerable. Spoiler alert: it doesn't.

That voice showed up loud and clear as I navigated all the tech setup, tried to figure out marketing (seriously, what even is a sales funnel?), and second-guessed every word in my class description. For a hot minute, I got caught up in the spiral of doubt and fear and insecurity – you know, all those feelings I help other people work through.

But here's what happened: my breath brought me back. My own meditation practice kicked in. I found myself doing exactly what I teach – pausing, breathing, and shifting my mindset with the guided meditations I've been focusing on throughout this process.

Which was actually a really good reminder that I can teach this stuff because I live it, not despite the fact that I struggle with it.

The Pressure to Have It All Figured Out

Can we talk about how launches are typically portrayed in the wellness world? There's this narrative that if you're "aligned" and have "done the work," everything flows effortlessly. You just manifest your way to success while drinking green juice and never having a moment of self-doubt.

That's not my experience, and I'm willing to bet it's not yours either.

I don't want to call anyone out – good for everyone who does it in their own way. But I think there's value in talking about the hard parts, and how having those hard parts doesn't take away from your worth or your capabilities.

The gap between what I teach and what I felt launching this class isn't a problem to solve – it's proof that the work is working. I felt anxiety and doubt and fear, and I was able to rely on my breathing techniques and mindset practices to keep going. I spiraled briefly, and my own tools brought me back.

Both things can be true.

Permission to Do Things Scared (And a Little Messy)

So why did I hit publish despite the discomfort? Because I love meditation – doing it, writing it, sharing it. I want to fill other people's cups in a way that fills my own too.

My Tuesday evening class (7:00-7:30 PM EST on Zoom, if you're wondering) is 30 minutes of guided meditation designed to help you pause and rest, let go and unwind. But more than that, it's about teaching skills you can use anywhere, anytime, even if you only have a minute.

Because here's what I know from my own messy launch process: we all need permission to not have our shit completely together while we're out here trying to do meaningful things. We need to know that feeling scared doesn't disqualify us from moving forward.

My husband, Huron (the schnauzer), and the three cats (Olive, Gus, and Salem) have been my foundation through all of this – not because they gave me pep talks, but because they reminded me that life keeps happening whether I'm launching something or not. They needed walks and food and attention, which kept me grounded in the simple, present moments between all the tech troubleshooting and impostor syndrome spirals.

Why I'm Doing It Anyway

The uncomfortable truth is that putting yourself out there never gets completely comfortable. But it does get more familiar. And sometimes, that's enough.

I'm launching this class not because I've transcended fear or figured out how to market myself perfectly, but because I believe in what I'm offering. I know that the skills that brought me back from my own spirals this week are the same ones that can help you find moments of calm in your overwhelmed days.

If you're a professional woman juggling corporate stress, entrepreneurial overwhelm, or caregiving burnout (or all three), you don't need another person telling you to just breathe and everything will be fine. You need actual tools and a community that gets it.

That's what I'm offering: meditation without the spiritual bypassing, stress management without the toxic positivity, and a space where it's okay to show up imperfectly.

My online group meditation class happens Tuesdays from 7:00-7:30 PM EST. It's pay-as-you-can with a $5 minimum because cost shouldn't be a barrier to finding some peace. Right now it's weekly drop-in, so come when you can. Book your spot here – I promise you don't need to have your shit together to join.